[Note: this is a followup to the last few posts here (part 3), here (part 2), and here (part 1) which are about a very pivotal story that completely changed my life and my relationship, and might just change yours too.]
Have you ever felt like there was someone else whispering doubts and lies into your ear?
Doubts and lies that make you question yourself… and your relationship?
Maybe they’ve even pushed you to act or behave a little out of character and accidentally sabotage your relationship…
But there I go getting ahead of myself again…
I was trapped in a small town in southern Thailand (that had no electricity during the day) with my identity stolen and with only about 30 US dollars to my name.
This left me pretty much powerless to do anything about my situation, as my bank kept tacking on extra fees every few hours for having my account “overdrawn”.
(At this point, I felt quite ashamed that I didn’t have as much money as I thought I had to begin with or have a credit card for emergencies).
As we walked back to the little hut we were staying in, Clay told me something I’ll never forget.
I held my breath as he put his hand on my shoulder told me that this was just one chapter of our love story–one adventure–that we’d look back on many years from now. He told me that we’d make it through this.
I breathed a huge sigh of relief…
I thought that this was the part he was going to tell me that he wished he never went on this trip with me because I ruined it.
Regardless of how much Clay tried to reassure me, I spent all night tossing and turning. I was still worried that I had lost everything and that Clay would eventually leave me in the end because I had ruined our trip.
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Mika
Mika loves to help others overcome their transparent beliefs that prevent them from having the love they want. She does regular live online presentations on thriving relationships where she also answers live questions. Mika is not a fan of being tickled and one day Clay will realize this as they have way too many tickle fights.
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Wow! I’m on the edge of my seat! I can absolutely relate to what you’re going through. I think I have a dirty harriet too. I’m going to call her angela. ha ha!
Anyway, I can’t wait to see what happened next, and those videos sound interesting too.
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Mika Replied:
Haha, how about ‘Angry Angela’?
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I have more than one voice in my head that kicks me when I am down. But the usual suspect is one that I refer to as “The Cynic”. I can’t wait to read the next part of your tale and see how you were able to deal with Dirty Harriet. Thanks for all the work you and Clay do to put these together for all of us.
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Mika Replied:
The Cynic… I like that… thanks for your comment, Rob. REAL SOON will every thing come together:)
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Yeah, I have this voice too. But I haven’t make it a name yet. It happened again today. Sigh.
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Mika Replied:
That voice is at the core of what’s holding you back from living the life you truly desire. Your deepest and limiting beliefs about yourself are formed at a young age. As an act of self-preservation, you’ve been living with this voice your whole life, a voice that whispers sweet shit in your ears… just to validate those beliefs about yourself that can be proved or disproved only by YOU. Thanks for stopping by! xx Mika
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casey Replied:
Thanks Mika. I’m truly relieved. I need to work from within to be totally free from that. :)
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Mika, I signed up for your free presentation and got the e-mail with the link, but the link is not working for me. It just takes me to a blank page. :(
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Mika Replied:
Mirelle,
I’m a little confused. Where did you click on free presentation on this post? Please send me an email about what’s going on. Thanks.
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Mirelle Replied:
Sorry for not clarifying, I was talking about the free presentation you asked people to sign-up for via e-mail. The one titled “Presentation That Completely Changed the Game”
(I don’t see your e-mail address, I hope it’s okay to leave this comment here.)
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Mirelle Replied:
Update; I apologize, I got it to work now. The presentation link, for whatever reason, doesn’t work with Chrome, but works with Safari.
Mika Replied:
Glad to hear, Mirelle:)
Any guy that can comfort you in the face of your worst fears is definitely a keeper. It takes a special person to be able to do that. Very few men out there will actually do that, which to me is alarming. You should feel very blessed to have that in your life!
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Mika Replied:
Yep, my relationship is pretty solid. No need to remind me to be grateful for the most important man in my life. Thanks for stopping by.
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